Always Happen

Always happen weih .

That awful lump stuck in the throat.

Gosh I hate that feeling .

After a while , it will all end up with tears.

Haizz need to train myself to control.

I have been trying ...

Someone help me D:

Never. Ever.

I am sorry.

For taking this for granted.

For rejecting that 5 times you oonfessed.

For always whining to you.

I am sorry if you think I am taking you for granted.

I am sorry but I really appreciate you.

With all my heart , I love you.

Just not the way you want me too but I love you :)

Really what are you waiting for ?

Its time to seize the chance.

What are you waiting for ?

Take a leap of faith

Take a risk.

Reviving on process !

Yerr bloggie so dead ... blehh ...

so dead right ? -.-

i use to update my bloggie like everyday last time D:

Nghh now no free time ...

Club activities , tuition , homework and my own revision.

I barely go on Facebook too. Damn sad weih T.T

Haha but anyways hows life ?

Mine's pretty good !

Best of it was Leo I gotta say :)

Leo , first meeting already I have an awesome expression about it xD

Haha pro pro ...

Anddddd ... Got cute guy worr x)

Haha I HAVE OFFICIALLY MOVED ON :D

Damnnn he so cute weih ... Me melting :pp

Okayy so I might as well go et my ice cream first ...

Ciaooooooooo :D

Boring Thursday

Damnn I am so bored ://

I hate holidays mann ~

Not like I can go out also -.-

Fortunately tomorrw going Gita's house:D

Heh so awesomeeee weih :DD

Haha I always love hanging over there :P

Her mummy is like wayyy too awesme xD

Haha I so badly wanna go to a playground larh now :P

Super duper duper bored here at home weihh ...

Haizz I shall go back to Twitter !

ciaoooo :P

Twitter

Wheeeee Twitter :3

Yessss I am a Twitter fan :DDD

Heh tweeting tweeting tweeting all day :P

Been tweeting so much today i am over the limit edi -.-

so yeah gotta wait for a few hours i think ._.

Oh wait ... Hehe can start again edi xD

LOL so it means only for few minutes :P

Hehe anyways follow me on twiter !

https://twitter.com/#!/mesooawesome

Bar Party (Y)

Okayy so yesterday !

Dad's friend's son's 19th birthday :D

Woots ! Idonotknowwhotheguyisatallactually :P

But anywayssss ! He is cuteeee , he has a lot of cuteeeee friends :3

But dont know why they just dont seem to interest me ...

Not to boast or anything some was like flirting with me ,

and I am like ignoring them ! I feel bad but oh well ...

Guess it's all because of you boyyyy x)

So yesterday ! Haha went there , to a bar ...

And I was like damn left out ...

No kids ... A lot of adults and young adults ...

Ahhh I was sitting there ... And the bartender was cuteeee xD

Had champagne and wine ...

Couldnt drink anything more heavier cuz daddy is like watching me

then i was just talking to my sister , whatsapping ...

fortunately got free internet ...

Then boom ! My phne black outtttt ...

Haha nooo i did not black out !

I pressed the off button xD

Yeah by accident :PPP

lazy to on it back edi so i was like aiya just sit back larh

then end up drinking vodka.

Shit man ! Too heavy edi , after all those wine i had

Got all high on my drinks , and made calls.

crapped some stuffs to some people ....

And fortunately my friend Heather was there.

Actually she was there the whole time :P

just she is flirting and dancing .

and i dont wanna dance or flirt -.-

haha then she sent sorry messages to peeps !

THANKS HEATHER ILOVEYOUTOTHEMAX :3

Thennnn next morning , BOOM !

I felt sooooo embarrassed !

And I was like whatttt ? 23 people ?!

I called 23 people ?! Fortunately all understood after i sent my personal sorry message

i was counting all those who forgave me when BOOM 1

KEN DID NOT REPLY ME D:

Then i am like arrrhhhh die die die !

I just lost a best friend D:

And i was damn worried but finally he replied ...

he was busy after all xD

then i was like phewwww

my best buddy is still sticking wth me :D

Haha but no one beats u heather !

sending them those messages :')

I loveeeeeyou to the max !

Haha yeahhh so that was yesterday xD

One Direction !!

One direction !!! Oh gosh * faint *

I am so freaking in loveee with this cute boys :DDD

Niall , Louis , Harry , Liam , Zayn !

aint they just the cutest band on earth :DDD

BABY YOU LIGHT UP MY WORLD LIKE NOBODY ELSE !

THE WAY THAT U FLIPPED UR HAIR GETS ME OVERWHELM

THE WAY YOU SMILE AT THE GROUND MAKES IT HARD TO TELL

U DONT KNOW ! OH OH

UDONTKNOWURBEAUTIFUL!

Oh myyyy they so cute and hotttt when they sing this man!

Ahhh One Direction u sooo fineeee ~

I want you as mineeee ~

Zaynnn . Harryyyy , Niallllllll ......

You guys are the top 3 :D Mannnn come to Malaysia weih :D

I definitely will go support u ttm n ur concert !

ONE DIRECTION COME TO MALAYSIA

Malaysians love ya ttm :D Greyson come back to Malaysia !

We love you ttm too ! :DDD

Comfort

Sometimes people feel so empty.

Sometimes people feel so cold.

Sometimes people's heart beak slowly.

Sometimes the just need someone to come and find them.

Sometimes all they need is comfort.

And sometimes no scratch that out.

Most of the times , I want to be the comfort.

Saturday !

Gosh yesterday was simply awesome :D

Haha first went Karate in the morning :p

Greg ditch me ! D: But oh well he was tired from cheer practice xD

Then straight went Gita's house for tuition ...

Haha learnt maths chapter 2 xD Wheeee :D

Then after that I stayed back at Gita's house till evening (Y)

It was like one of the awesomest time we hang out weih :D

Only both of u , without the others xD

We did each other hairs , video camera stuffs , talk , gossip.

Haha okayyy for one day I was rather girly :P

Hehe but we had some fights xD With bolster and pillow :D

Haha had late lunch , watch videos :D

HAHA WE WERE CRAZY OVER THE WANTED GLAD U CAME AND

ONE DIRECTION WHAT MAKES U BEAUTIFUL (Y)

They are sooo cute ( take the wanted out xD ) and their voices (Y)

* melts * Hahaha ! we even made fun of some of them :D

Such an awesome day :) I am so glad me and Gita still close ...

Haha we had lotsa talks :P Really made me love her xD

Buahahaha UR BARBIE DOLL ! :D

And thanks for the breakfast ! U made something urself xD

Well thats it :) Haha such awesome moments ... Simple but really awesome xD

Haha byeeee guys :D

OWL XD

LOOOOOL this picture reminds me of Jason xD

He used to pronounce owl as OW-UL !

HAHAHAHA XD He so funny larh :')

I miss u dude ! See I MISS U , I ADMIT XD

haha i dont think u'll even see this :P

U larhh ... Such a smarty pants , studying so much ...

Every night and afternoon u stick with ur books ...

Seriously dude relax lehhh :P

Dont study too much or ur brains will burst :)

Haha good luck in ur new class bro !

I love u like hellllllll ! HAHAHA BECAUSE U AWESOME LIKE THAT :)

Your one boy that holds a big part of myself.

Talk to u tomorrow best friend xD

I miss u like hell weih :(

Class aint the same without you !

Finally :)

Finallyyyyyy :D

Someone go plan me a party !!

YEAH MAN , I AM OVERRRR HIM !!! AWESOMEEEE :D

Wheeee after soooo long xD

Gosh I am so proud of myself ,

Now i do not have to worry for some dude liking someone else.

Hehe I feel like crying xD

Now the only thing I have to worry is ....

LACKKKKKK OF FOOD XDDD

MUAHAHAHA LIKE TODAY !

Recess , NOT ENOUGH FOOD NOT ENOUGH TIME D:

MANNNNN , I was likeeee so tortured during class time ! Haha i didnt tell Jien Hern or Greg that my stomach was grumbling xD

Damnnnn i was actually praying for school to finish fast !

Hehehe this is how much i can go for foooooood :D

Liar.

You once said , you'd never wanna hurt me.

I dont even know if u remember that.

You say you'd never wanna do that to me.

Doubting my loyality to u hurt me.

I promised I'd keep the secret ,

you doubt me but not the others ?

It hurts , seeing I believe u so much.

But u on the other hand , doubt me.

During this long friendship , I never leak a secret out.

I promised you and I kept to it.

You doubt me ? Do u know much that hurts?

Liar.

10th January and counting :)

Wheeee what day is it ?! YES TUESDAY ! :D

What dateeee ?! 10TH JANUARY 2012 !

How old are youuu ?! 15 YEARS OLD !

Dayumm so old edi one ?! :O

I cant believe I am now a form 3 student weih :'(

Time stopped ticking edi ... THEY START FLYING , ZOOMING NOW ! D:

Terrible terrible time !

Haha anywayssss , what's up ? :)

My day basically the same , well always containing FUN stuffs xD

Muahahaha , its so happy and all :)

Gosh i misssss school so much weih xD

Haha homework , school work , asssignments not much ....

Let's wait till a few more weeks , then everything will come pouring in :P

Haha what so more to tell u guys OTHER THAN MY AWESOME DAY ?!

Muahahha yes yes ! MY AWESOME LUNCH XD

Its PIZZA ! Yes again , I know :P But idontmind xD

I love pizza anyways :D Can never get sick of the fast foods xD

Hehe its awesomeeee :3

Hmm I am guessing I am rather mean :O

But its not really all my fault -.-

So this ' BEST FRIEND ' of mine is like .... asking me something ...

asking me if i broke a secret of his -.-

I mean like seriously ? :( Ur my best friend u dont doubt me !

Anyways he apologize and all but I think he still doubts me -.-

And i was like the one always there for him and all !

I got really pissed so i decided i have to do something ,

I am scratching his name out of my best friend list :P

MUHAHAHAHAHHAA IIII FEEEL POWERFULLLL XD

MUAHAHHA XD Then then I inserted his name in good friend list.

Heyyy at least I still keep ur name somewhere -.-

This is one main reason , why i prefer my school bestfriends.

They NEVER doubt you.

And then another BEST FRIEND thinks I am avoiding her and stuffs again.

Jeez seriously if u call urself best friend , u should understand,

When i do not wanna talk i reply u coldly.

When i dont reply u DONT MEAN I HATE U OR ANYTHING -.-

And my privacy IS MINE , dont go digging my life.

i love all of u guys like sooo much , but if u dont understand me.

Ur no where near what people call best friends.

Start understanding my ways , and pleaseeee

I do not have to tell u my ways ,

u observe me and find it out urself ...

if i can do that , why cant u ?

Sometimes I so hope life was pictures ...

If i didnt like this picture , i could always choose another one.

Jeez ... U guys are ruining my mood weih ...

One after another , once i burst u guys will seriously regret weih ...

Tolerating too much edi -.-

I want a real smile ~

Screwing up the best thing ever ,

is something you'll regret forever.

Is it really so hard ?

So hard for me to put on a real smile ?

I am seriously sick of fake ones ....

But if i dont smile , everyone gets hurt .

They think i am in deep problem and i cant be helped.

they cant help me so they think they can do nothing.

in the end i am hurting them.

no , its better to fake a smile.

I rather fake a smile , then to cry and ask for sympathy

Fake a smile rather than cry and hurt the loved ones.

Little Little Girl , so fragile so broken.

Little Little Girl , when will you get up feeling confident , feeling strong?